Warrioress Rising

Nearly a year ago, a friend and mentor of mine felt inspired to write a book on healing from sexual abuse. I have never really acknowledged or wanted to share the details about this part of my life- and I almost didn't. If you've been there, you know that the shame and pain you feel is silencing.  But I could not shake the feeling that my story was valid, and I needed to share it- again with the hope of helping others overcome and heal. I wanted to give just a taste of the content is in this book- so that people understand how much deeper this goes than just healing from sexual abuse. This is healing the soul. 

An excerpt from my story:

"Enter Kintsugi:'When the Japanese mend broken objects, they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when something's suffered damage and has a history, it becomes more beautiful.' And this is me. Those cracks are still there. It is apparent my soul has been broken on more than one occasion, but I have allowed those cracks to be filled. I have refused to allow cracks to build up until there is nothing left of me.

To say I am completely free from the feelings I felt would be a lie; those cracks will always remain. I thought that was a bad thing- I thought it meant I was still bound by those cords. But, I am no longer bound by them. I feel them in memory, but I choose daily to allow the cracks to be filled with gold. I choose to forgive when an apology was never given, I choose to be happy even though I have a million justifications to be miserable.

I believe we all come from greatness, and we are meant to live in greatness. Many experiences are out of our control, and things are done that we did not ask for. The only control that we have is what we choose to do in, and with those circumstances. I also believe that in our times of turmoil, great or small, we are carried in the arms of our Savior. My favorite analogy of this comes from the story Footprints in the Sand

'My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never leave you. During your time of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints- it was then that I carried you.'

The night always gives way to day, and the dark must always give way to the light. May we all find and share the divine light that is within each of us."

Warrioress Rising is available on Amazon, or at www.saskiaspeaks.com/books.